I'm actually in a whole mess rite now..
My life seems to be upside down again..
Feeling so shitty in mi really..
But I juz dunno wat I can / should do to amend all these..
Work, family n personal life..
Work has been giving mi too much problem..
My leader actually asked mi tis "why m I not being able to improve at 1 go? Why sometimes gd n sometimes bad in my performance?"
I guess I was too anxious n agitated at e same time..
I replied her tt when I take gd care of this sch.. another sch comes out wif another problem.. I work n try my very best.. I dun work to prove anyone my capability.. I dun give a damn on how ppl look at mi or comment abt mi..
Next I went downstairs to smoke..
She came down n tried to talk nicely to mi..
However somehow I juz find it fake..
Well tt's social skills I guess..
No one at work will fully be real cos they wanna cover their own ass too..
As for family, well dun haf to mention much.. Its my mum again..
She kept consuming panadol n say n do stupid things..
Haiz.. Driving mi nuts soon..
As for personal, I dun wanna talk much cos kind of pointless at times..
Wat I think I need to do I've done..
Its up to individual to think wat it is..
Anyway I can't stop their thinking..
My case has postponed again to 2nd August..
Hopefully it'll be rainbow after all these thunderstorms..
I really wan peace..
If possible I will wan to go for holiday if nothing goes wrong
*cross fingers*