Updates regarding my case trial

I know I'm a little late on updating my blog, due to some busy schedule and etc.
Hmm.. but at least.. here I am again =)

Before I update my case.. my life is so far so good..
Im now handling schools ard Bedok Reservoir area..
The schools here are good.. OM are negotiable =)

Kk come back to the actual topic and purpose im here..
n yeah.. im home alone now..

My case trial will start on 12th Sept 2011 at 10.30am at court no 12.
And yes, I have not pleaded guilty.
I didn't P.G. becos I find it too ridiculous if I did..
I can't go thru myself in the first place..
even though my Lawyer keep pursuading me to.. n the percentage of getting me a probation is high..
But if I really did plead guilty on 2nd Sept that day itself,
I will be letting down every single one who is related to me, including myself.
Why should I keep giving in myself and let that basturd (sad to say, he's my dad)feels that even justice can't do anything to him?
Why m I always thinking of others before myself?
I keep questioning myself and I had been having nightmares abt that basturd, abusing me n my family..

Been thinking hard enough for the past few weeks, and finally I took this courage to stand up and face it myself..
My current lawyer is pretty useless though..
I know my case is tough.. but in the first place.. if I wanna plead guilty then what for I engage him for?? M I right? I had been paying and paying.. A total of $6k so far and he is still asking for more..

Im going insane soon but luckily I have my family and friends that is always there for me, physically n emotionally.. If not I believe I had long gone insane.

I think if I really nt able to look for a good n negotiable lawyer, I might just stand up for myself this time round. I do hope my family n friends will still be there no matter what the outcome is..

Anyway I do hope some ppl will come to hear my case trial but I know everyone is busy.. But no matter what I will face the music n appear in court.